Monday, February 16, 2009
The Moon Over Siam
Another day, Another month, another valentine, alone. Today, I watch a movie from Thailand. The drama of the movie really spins my heart & my mind together. How many of you really felt the same? I'm begining to ask myself question that I've never asked before. Questions such as, am I really homosexual? If yes, what role am I? Top? I can top people, but I rarely felt the pleasure of it for myself. Bottom? That was the role when I first join the circle, but it's really hard for me to find someone that can give me the real pleasure of it. Love? I don't know even if I've really love someone. These few weeks, I've met with alot of people. Yet, I felt that I could just simply hug & kiss anyone. I mean, what is this? I've never felt so lost all this time. Is it really love that I'd felt all this time when I was with someone? Or am I that desperate to have someone? I really don't know the answers to these questions. Even if I do, what's the outcome? Only more questions...
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Well this is the first time I'm commenting on your blog, but yes, I understand your sentiment completely... You meet more and more people, and it become more of a flirt, and f**k, rather than just friends and fun!
Blehhh sorry, those are too serious words, but hope you'd find your answer eventually!
haha...
a truth comment is more appreciated then winding words :)
Haha i guess that's true... But sometimes you just want to hear those lies don't ya? :P
I don't...
i used to lie alot... when i was at my younger age... but then again, even thought I found out it hurts when you know the truth, but it hurts more when you were promised something and you are not getting it.
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