OK!!! I love the taste of having the cester membership once again. But I felt that it's too short!!! I also notice that there's an error with this free membership. It's very much like an incomplete free demo. I recall cester membership was suppose to give out unlimited email correspondences. I found out just now IT WAS NOT and only limitted me with 10 emails. To my amaze, I just to to wait for the webmaster to login and check for my previous mail. Hope to get an official cester membership. Also hope it's not expensive able to do with bank-in method. Not many of us have credits cards you know. It's very much like I'm getting hooked to cester again. (can't be help since FB is sooo darnn sloooowwww~~~!!!).
Now in "Pok Kai" status. Mean I'm waiting for my salary to be ready for withdrawal this coming Wednesday. Working here is making becoming more & more retarded. And mind you, you might be head the same directions with me if you are on the same side with me. Really wish to move to another job. But currently, Kenneth said it's best that I remain here. Even though I know he's more of a using me kind of person. But I doubting his words anyway. I just don't know how much more of this insanity is going. Maybe that's why I need a vacation.
As for my relationship, I think we're both doing OK. But I have a sudden feeling that Fong wanted to take the next step. Which is moving in with me. But, I don't feel too comfortable. Should I lay down the trial basis with him? Because as of this moment, it saddens me alot when I woke up and found out I'm alone.... AGAIN!!!! I'm not sure if I can really take that. As for now, I think I really need to talk to him. Seriously, I'm not sure if I really love him. Or maybe I was too desperate to have a partner in life. This, I've already told him. I'm still very much scared. Scared of hurting people, and scared that I'll get hurt in the process as well.
I'm not really sure as of why. Seriously, I join Axcest was because it's kinda popular to display your own photo while chatting with friends in IRC or else where. And unexpectedly, I found people new & old people whom seems to have an interest to have sex with me. I find it rather odd. I'm not sure if this coming weekend i wanna hold a chem fun party at my place. I'm being abit too financially confuse at the moment. I don't wanna think this now. Scared my malfunctioning brain won't take it that much.
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Hmm... Well all I can say is: "Get out of that mentality of hurting people!" Haha I'm telling ya this cause I KNOW what you are thinking. I am and always will be in taht state, that's why I'm still single and miserable... I shun awau every single potential BFs and I am always looking for that particular SOMEONE which will never come. But if you can move on, best try what you can, and let life flow, as it should be! Relationships are meant to be enjoyed, not ponders, worried! :P
But anyway, I would have to say a big NO to that chem party of yours... You might just regret it! But if you do have it, might be a turning point in your life? :P
In any case though, all the best for now! xD
PS: Fong!? That's my surname! =.=
haha~~!!
that's his surname as well :)
chem fun, i'm still considering actuallly @@"
chem again ah mr cheah? aiyor... i'll reach kl on sunday evening.. let me join LOL
LOL!!!
cannot...
sunday evening i go ipoh kao chai...
ya, bad time, just have to tight your belt lah, i am going to disconnect my internet and go cc, it is cheaper and also can see many liang zai, hehehe
good for you then :P
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