Rumours Of The Moon

I was working in the admin office for a few days. Then only I've realised that I had an admirer there. She doesn't know of my sexuality yet. She asked, I replied her with another question. But since I don't wanna lead her to any confusion. So I've asked her out on friday for a movie. Provided if she remembers. They've ask me if I was in a relationship with one of my colleague, Jenny. I sort of freaked out on how they all jump to conclusion saying so. They said if she had talk about secret stuffs and so on and everything related to her personal life. I said yes. They immediately they confirm that I'm having some sort of relationship with Jenny. Then I told him that my superior also talk about this personal life and stuff like that, then asked her if I have any relationship with him instead.

Last night, I've ask my boy if he was happy being together with me. He said yes, but with a price. He said that he's not earning enough money to take me go out and everything. Everything he did is never enough. He don't wanna stay at home because he don't actually has a room to sleep in and his mother always watch TV til very late at night. He cried in my arms again for the second time. I guess I'm a bad lover cause I made him cried again. This time I cried with him. I don't know how to console him. And I really don't know what will happen if one day he's without me. I'm just hoping for a better future for him now. Of course, I need to do some struggling for myself too. Wishing all the best for our time being together. But he do know that one day someone will come and take me away. I just don't know when. Now I just hope that person never comes.

The Sepration Of The Moon

My 2nd BF called and ask me if I have some money to lent him. My reply was no. I'm sadden enough that whenever he always called me was because he needed something from me. He didn't even knows that what he said hurts me as well. That's why I let him taste the feeling of jumping into the relationship so soon without getting to know me well enough to be with me. But after a due consideration. I sms him and ask for a break up. I won't know what his reaction. Nor I care what his feelings. Obviously, he's yet to know the real meaning of being in a relationship. Nor that he can handle it yet. I feel I'm already blessed that I'm have my 1st BF. Even thought I'll curse the day when his family founds out about his sexuality. Like an old chinese proverb,"Paper cannot wrap the fire." Thus, the truth will eventually be known. I just hope that every single day, he's happy with me.

Being a true friend to me is difficult. Being my man makes it worse than difficult. I just hope that other won't so easily fall for me for no particular reason. I think most people get the wrong impression of seeing somebody & going steady. Seeing someone is like a dating process of getting to know each other. many know this, no doubt. But they put their emotions in it before they really can deal with other personality and aspect of their lives. When one had fully understand each other and able to be compatible, then only they can go on a steady relationship. I just hope my friends around me will understands this.

The New Moons Of Tidings

Yesterday, a friend, recently known, came back to KL yesterday. Ask for a meet up in town after I finished work. I comply. But the hilarious part was that I was not alone with him. Join with 5 other friends. At first, we were to meet up at Berjaya Times Square. On the third floor, nearby OldTown Cafe. The I met the 22 years old Chikopeh, jason, and along with his other friend, Brent. Then we need to wait for Jason's other friend. It was only a short wait. Then he show up with his boyfriend together. Lovely couple, Edison & Edwin! Felt abit bad that my boy can't join me on this outing. And then after dinner, we meet up with jason's hometown friend. They planned to go for a movie, but instead due to the time limits some of us had, we decide to cancel movie and take a rest time in OldTown Cafe. After a short while, I had to part with them. Need to rush back as a friend of mine said he wanna come over to copy some movie from my computer. But unfortunately, he was on his super sonic jet plane and "FFKed" me.

Luckily, everything is still well. I enjoy the night bullying Jason. Exchanged phone number with Edison & Edwin. They smsed me later that night. Althought I Should be in bed, but I waited for my boy instead. Then we spend the night together with a little chit chat before I doze of like a baby. I dunno why. I felt that my boy kept hiding stuff from me. There's lots of things he doesn't want me to know nor doesn't wan me to help out as well. Yes, I know might not be able to do anything at all. But I wanna know how he feel. I wanna be there for him as well.

Perhaps it's what some of my friends told me. It's still going to be a disasterous relationship. I'm begining to feel I'm better off alone.

Rihanna's Moon

Now this be the last time you did me wrong
No more laying up in your arms
No calling, saying you want me back
I'm packing my bags, what you think about that?

Stayed at home like a good girl do
But tonight baby you got me sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car now, kissing at the bar
Got me crying

[Chorus:]
Ohhh, you got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Oh you took my love
Now you got me like whoahhh
You got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Why'd you have to take my love
Whoahh

And you can be mad at me all you want
I ain't coming in, I'll be waiting out front
Coming out the door with your girlfriend
You did me wrong boy tell me where our love is

Stayed at home like a good girl do
But tonight baby you got me sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car now, kissing at the bar
Got me crying


[Chorus:]
Ohhh, you got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Oh you took my love
Now you got me like whoahhh
You got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Why'd you have to take my love
Whoahh

Now this is the sound of a broken heart
There's only one reason why we're apart
She never woulda made it to your car
If it wasn't for the club, I'd still have my love
We would still have us
I'd still have my love
We would still have us

But now we're like whoahhhh

Ohhh, you got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Oh you took my love

But now, now we're like whoahhh
You got me hatin' on the club
You took my love
Oh you took my love


Couldn't post the songs here from Imeem.com
No idea why & don't ask me.