Rumours Of The Moon

I was working in the admin office for a few days. Then only I've realised that I had an admirer there. She doesn't know of my sexuality yet. She asked, I replied her with another question. But since I don't wanna lead her to any confusion. So I've asked her out on friday for a movie. Provided if she remembers. They've ask me if I was in a relationship with one of my colleague, Jenny. I sort of freaked out on how they all jump to conclusion saying so. They said if she had talk about secret stuffs and so on and everything related to her personal life. I said yes. They immediately they confirm that I'm having some sort of relationship with Jenny. Then I told him that my superior also talk about this personal life and stuff like that, then asked her if I have any relationship with him instead.

Last night, I've ask my boy if he was happy being together with me. He said yes, but with a price. He said that he's not earning enough money to take me go out and everything. Everything he did is never enough. He don't wanna stay at home because he don't actually has a room to sleep in and his mother always watch TV til very late at night. He cried in my arms again for the second time. I guess I'm a bad lover cause I made him cried again. This time I cried with him. I don't know how to console him. And I really don't know what will happen if one day he's without me. I'm just hoping for a better future for him now. Of course, I need to do some struggling for myself too. Wishing all the best for our time being together. But he do know that one day someone will come and take me away. I just don't know when. Now I just hope that person never comes.