Obessed Of The Moon

Disappointment Of The Moon

So, I wanted to ask how many of us has this thing called 'LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT'? To be honest, I've never experience this. So, I get someone whom told me that he has feelings for me when he he first saw me. Then when he said he has no place to live, I invited him to stay with me. So, he go and pack-up all his things and come back here. But the surprising part is why is he taking so long to come back? Now he's in Kepong. Suppose to have come back since last friday. Then DELAYED to Saturday for Friday might be abit too late for him to come back. So, we arranged to go back on Saturday when i finish work in the morning. He asked me to give him a wake up call. But turn out that he off his phone. I stayed awake on that Saturday until he switch on his phone. I can accept the excuse that his phone is faulty and off by itself. But then he told me he will off his phone when he's sleeping. Then he kept hesitating. Saying Monday would be convinient for him to come back as the person whom he's staying with can drive him back. And, now, it's already Tuesday. So he said he want to come back before he start working on the 1st of July. Which is this coming Wednesday. Now he's still at his friend's place. I may have feelings for him. But he continues to be like this, then I might as well give up.

News Flash Update. He told me that he found it hard and heartache to see me with my current bf together. I know, he's having a tought time. But what about my feelings? I'm still human as well. Currently, I'm so upset that it's making restless. To think that my mom wanted to give him money to continue his studies. I just gave him 3 options earlier. So, I'll let him have eternity to think over it. I cannot love if I don't feel love. You can say it's a mirror effect that I've develope after having so many disappointment in my life. And yes, I'm able to love 2 person at the same time. For this I blame my dead father for being so flirtatious. Must have been from his side of personality.

Late been having restless days & nights. The only time when I feel more comfortable is when I'm working and I can forget all of it. I can still recall the dream I had last night. I dream about my mom & dad. They were like trying to work things out together. And I see my little brother too. We're like talking about food and arrangements. The only funny thing is that my father answer the phone with a TV remote. Don't ask. I know it's abit of insane. But there's part of me saying that this could be possible. Perhaps in the far away future.

Parenting Of The Moon

What happen when your boyfriend broke up with you and you won't accept it? What would you do actually? And how would he handle it? Things that happens too much around LOVE is really hard to handle. But would you get even and tell his family that he's gay? Destroying his life with the family in the process? We all know what will happen if our parents are not that open about homosexuality. I've heard so many true life stories. And some even more worst when it comes to being open about your sexuality.

I must admit that I got lucky. My superior doesn't mind it. As long as I'm performing. And as for my family, I'm just happy that they are not doing anything to change me. Including my mom, which is a major relief for me. In my past Journal, Blog or whatever you called it, you people who read it would come to know of Edison. He just broke off with his boyfriend. And his boyfriend got so mad and not accepting it, he went to tell Edison's family about his sexuality. Now, Edison has been kick out of the house and completely cut of from his family by any means, including financial support. He maybe 24, but still a student. He has 4 more months to graduate. Now being homeless, and unable to continue his studies, he would be devastated. Lucky for him to have known me earlier. I'll be taking him in to stay with me for the time being, at least until he can support himself to moved out. I have to admit that my place is a shit hole. Go asked those that really been to my house.

Meanwhile, I hope that everything will be ok in the later time to come. Have to come up with a plan to help out Edison & myself as well, so my boy doesn't get too financially burdened in taking care of me. I propose we eat maggie me for 1 whole month, next month. I know some of you will say I'm stupid and he's lying and so on. But it's a risked I'm willing to take. I just don't want another life being screw by society's acceptance about our sexuality. Well, basically, this is a burden I'm going to take sooner or later. Might as well try to get it on and do my best to accustom it.