Disappointment Of The Moon

So, I wanted to ask how many of us has this thing called 'LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT'? To be honest, I've never experience this. So, I get someone whom told me that he has feelings for me when he he first saw me. Then when he said he has no place to live, I invited him to stay with me. So, he go and pack-up all his things and come back here. But the surprising part is why is he taking so long to come back? Now he's in Kepong. Suppose to have come back since last friday. Then DELAYED to Saturday for Friday might be abit too late for him to come back. So, we arranged to go back on Saturday when i finish work in the morning. He asked me to give him a wake up call. But turn out that he off his phone. I stayed awake on that Saturday until he switch on his phone. I can accept the excuse that his phone is faulty and off by itself. But then he told me he will off his phone when he's sleeping. Then he kept hesitating. Saying Monday would be convinient for him to come back as the person whom he's staying with can drive him back. And, now, it's already Tuesday. So he said he want to come back before he start working on the 1st of July. Which is this coming Wednesday. Now he's still at his friend's place. I may have feelings for him. But he continues to be like this, then I might as well give up.

News Flash Update. He told me that he found it hard and heartache to see me with my current bf together. I know, he's having a tought time. But what about my feelings? I'm still human as well. Currently, I'm so upset that it's making restless. To think that my mom wanted to give him money to continue his studies. I just gave him 3 options earlier. So, I'll let him have eternity to think over it. I cannot love if I don't feel love. You can say it's a mirror effect that I've develope after having so many disappointment in my life. And yes, I'm able to love 2 person at the same time. For this I blame my dead father for being so flirtatious. Must have been from his side of personality.

Late been having restless days & nights. The only time when I feel more comfortable is when I'm working and I can forget all of it. I can still recall the dream I had last night. I dream about my mom & dad. They were like trying to work things out together. And I see my little brother too. We're like talking about food and arrangements. The only funny thing is that my father answer the phone with a TV remote. Don't ask. I know it's abit of insane. But there's part of me saying that this could be possible. Perhaps in the far away future.