Unsettling Of The Moon

Call me heartless and lost of family touch. Being brought up from a broken has it's advantages and disadvantages. Advantages would be not needing any assistance from family, your brother or mother or sister or even other relative. The disadvantages would be you could care less about what your family things about you. And may even cut off connections from your family as well.

The point is that E has finally came back. But the settling feels that he still wanna go home to his family and hoping that they would accept him back. And so he left for Cameron again in the evening last night. I don't know if he cannot take it as he have to share me with Fong. But if I was in his shoe, I wouldn't have try to return back to my family in such short time. Maybe I know better, or maybe I don't know anything. I just hope the best for him. I know that staying with me is not the best option. But it's better than staying few days at a friend's place then moved to another. Since he decided, I have let him go and face it. But I can't really help but feeling that he's hiding something from me. his police report about his missing I/C, the one that show his year of birth is being scratch off. Which is making me very curious. And also, he suppose to go and make a new I/C by now. But knowing that it maybe his 1st case, I just inform him that it's time for him to go and make a new I/C. But the point is why he moving away from me again? This time he said he'll be back on Saturday. I don't know if he knows. I am the one giving chances for him to be with me. I guess it's just another waiting I have to deal with.

So far, I see E is rather hesitant about coming out to his friends. It was this incident last night that he called me while he was crying. All due to his friend found out that he's PLU. But where as his facebook wrote something else. But I really don't know if he knows that our circle is not small. If your friend know that you are PLU and cannot accept that, then they were never your friend from the very beginning. This is what others have told me. But for family wise, once they decided to give up on me, I will give up on them, permenant. No question asked. But hey, it's just me. Solely depends on the reactions of other people. One can never have guessed. As my dear friend Nic used to say, or maybe still saying. Love me, hate me, you still see me.

Working life seem dead boring. So, my company planned a trip to Pangkor Island. It was a nice island. But since I've been there before, it's nothing new to me. Decided not to go. Besides, I can take this chance to be with fond more. Because, he's starting complain about the changes. During May, I was working in the morning shift for recuperating my health back to normal conditions. We slept hugging each other always.

Met a friend whom was missing like always after our first & second meet-up. But she was busy all this while. She happens to drop by to midvalley and so she asked me out for a short meet up. Which, I'm very happy of course. And Jason is finally coming back from Malacca. He'll be staying with Brent. Also another friend we met during the little gathering. Hope to see him tomorrow for breakfast at bukit bintang for McD's breakfast. It's been too long I've taken their breakfast. Which is yummy of course! I'll never have enough anyway. That's why I'm saving my tummy for it now. Just hope that my gastric doesn't comes first. Or, I'll be ending up at the nearest hospital instead. Just need to take continue walking this road. It's all still foggy and blurry at this moment. One can only hope that the wind will blow to have a clearer path. It'll take time. But I got eternity.