First Impact On The Moon

A friend text me on Friday and ask how was I doing and everything. We ended up with threesome with him and 1 of my friend. I stayed awake until next morning and hope to start another session. But somehow failed. So I rested for awhile when my BF came back. When I woke up I found my BF was not around. Then I text him to check where he is. Found out he was at home. My new house mate was around. We chatted in his room until my BF came back again. We sleep well that night. But I woke up around 10am and hope to get my BF to wake and get breakfast together. But he failed to wake up and made me waited and starved. I was very upset. But when he woke up, I didn't bother his existence as well. Shortly after he's go out, I started to cry and left for cybercafe to do something to make me happier, ONLINE GAMES! But shortly he text me and apologized and mention that he has bought me some food. Only that when he returned, I was not at home.

When I about to finish my time in cyber cafe, a called a friend of mine to inform him to try get the set item from the game for me. Then he ask when am I going to pay for the internet bills and get connected so I can play at home as well. I told him that I'm not going to pay so soon. But my BF will apply for the line. He ask what will happen to the line when we break up? I told him that's not gonna happen. As I felt my BF is the one that I'm going to be together with forever. then my friend responded that my BF didn't fit the description of the person 1 bit. After I've cold down and when home. Another major sadness struck me again. The food he bought was McDonald's Fish-o-Filet. But the FUCKING CAT before I DID! I was damn pissed and sad at the same time. He came back later that night. We cuddle in bed as normal.

Right now, I only know that I love him and no one else. Happy memories of having me together with him are the only things I can give. I don't know how long we'll last. Even if that guy really show up when I reach 32yo. He'll have to moved mountains before he can get my love in return.

First Asteroid Hits The Moon

While hugging to sleep last night. My BF suddenly pops up the question,"How long have we been together?" For a moment, my heartache so much that I don't really know what my surname was. When I asked why, he replied nothing. I don't know what he has in mind. He never spoke his mind out. I always felt he's hidding something from me. Then today, after he drove me to the LRT station, he sent me an sms. Asking if I'm ok. Because I look kinda sad, or still sleepy. I didn't reply. Because I know I'm a bit moody when I don't get enough sleep.

Later today he pops up in MSN. I ask if he has visit the doctor yet. Yes, my BF is not well these few days. Our conversation in MSn goes down as below:-

Me: You song la~
Me: dear dear cannot anal you until then >.<
BF: Last time the medicine only one week ma. Then can already
BF: .... You sound like i dont like make love v u.... Sorry o...
Me: haha
Me: but what to do... boy boy always no mood coz too tired ^^
BF: ... Dear dear get someone else lo ...
Me: boy boy dun wan me?
BF: No ar.
Me: then dun tell me to get someone else la... *cry*

The one highlighted in bold nearly shattered my fragile heart into gazillion pieces. Then the song played gave me some meanings. Sharing it with you all here are the lyrics. Hope those can understand.

軟硬天師 - 愛式

瀟瀟灑灑 不是愛嗎? 生生死死 先算愛嗎?
瘋瘋顛顛先毽得漂亮嗎? 簡簡單單 不是愛嗎?
輾輾轉轉 先算愛嗎? 反反覆覆先毽R得快樂嗎?

你話拖住你手 日日戊簳陀
時時錫你仲要晚晚都黎
同人結婚 講一句我願意
但系甘系咪等於我愛你
望住我肯上黎屋企坐
記得我生日 時時送禮物
應承過無論點都殿尼渻
但系甘系咪等於你愛我

開開心心 不是愛嗎?
辛辛苦苦 不算愛嗎?
真的東西怎溫亃這樣假
飄飄忽忽 不似愛嗎?
清清楚楚 可算愛嗎?
一聲一聲想你概_太假

就算我唔識你 或者你太遲黎
我一個人睇戲 尋晚你同巨擒被
我已經記唔起 我十年無見你
但系甘系咪等於我唔愛你
你著巨件衫 晚晚都甘夜番
任你點樣玩 有幾個比你揀
你從來無講過 可能我睇錯
但系甘 系咪等於你唔愛我
你猜我估 你勝你敗
男界女界 正常系變態
其實我值唔值 到底你識唔識
究竟我地最愛系乜野式
系真定系扮 系軟定硬
系蝕定系賺 系濃定淡
白撞黑紅加綠 抑或藍溝藍
你話愛究竟仲有邊個識

瀟瀟灑灑 不是愛嗎? 生生死死 先算愛嗎?
瘋瘋顛顛先毽R得漂亮嗎? 簡簡單單 不是愛嗎?
輾輾轉轉 先算愛嗎? 反反覆覆先毽得快樂嗎?

我俾你上 你又為我落
你俾我前 又俾我後
我做完就訓 你訓醒就走
但系甘 系咪等於你愛我愛你
你話唔俾我住 巨肯俾我食
我要你唔肯 巨系我唔得
你唔要得唔得 但系巨系咪等於你愛我愛你

瀟瀟灑灑 不是愛嗎? 生生死死 先算愛嗎?
瘋瘋顛顛先毽得漂亮嗎? 簡簡單單 不是愛嗎?
輾輾轉轉 先算愛嗎? 反反覆覆先毽R得快樂嗎?

其實 青青春春 干乾濕濕 深深淺淺 咿咿挹挹
斜紋代表大方 圓點代表爽朗 體貼代表超薄
碎花代表乾爽 粉紅真皮燙金凹凸紋
防水樽領盒裝 直銷十二碼通用
數碼的確涼 乾濕兩用

"我念!我都系鍾意你條瑩光!"